Goal 1 Met

YAHOO! I hit my first post surgery goal...25 down a lot more to go. I am so freaking happy about how things are going. For those that assume the weight just falls off, it DOESN'T! Not really! It takes discipline, making sure that I've gotten in my 100 grams of protein, all of my vitamins and then other foods is time consuming. My body is still adjusting. It's figuring out it's new normal and so am I.
   Change is hard, it's been 7 weeks and I'm just now starting to really be able to enjoy chicken. I plan o retry fish again this week too. I still see the 300+ pound me when I look in the mirror and friends say that will take time. I was morbidly obese for most of my life. It's going to take time to see the new me.
On another note, I don't just deal with weight issues, I have diabetic neuropathy, fibromyalgia, type 2 diabetes, arthritis in all of my joints including my spine. The neuropathy combined with the two knee replacements have cause drop foot. I am now going to need braces to help my feet, I wear compression gloves for my hands because the pain is 24/7/365 days a year. I deal with depression/anxiety as well. All this to say, I have a lot I'm dealing with. But knowing I am losing weight and getting healthier helps in so many ways!

One Month PO

One moth, actually 36 days ago I had gastric sleeve surgery. In those days, I have cried, given up & got back up, realized I eat too fast and I am a slow eater or at least I was before, and have learned this is the hardest "diet" ever. No it's not a diet. It's a life changing surgery in all aspects. I have no patients for the scale, never have, but now it's worse. I want to weigh myself weekly but let's be honest, I weigh daily. Some days I get excited, some days I need dynamite.
  My scale says 21 lbs down. I go to the doc tomorrow and I'm hoping it says more than that.  I  have learned I am an emotional eater. My new stomach doesn't let that happen all that much. I  just can't eat those comfort foods anymore. Heck, I can barely eat anything anymore. Only thing that doesn't make my stomach hurt is fruits, yogurts, soft, smooth textures, and broth soups. Suppose to be able to eat eggs, chicken, fish, cottage cheese, and a variety of veggies. But they all make me hurt or puke.
   Emotionally, I'm somewhat ok. Like I said, good days and bad days. Most is frustration. I can't do what I want because of my chronic pain from neuropathy, fibromyalgia and arthritis. Once back on the meds for the arthritis I am hoping I can do more. We shall see. So many issues, some directly due from being obese, some not so much but all have stole moments from my life and my kids lives. :( Sigh! 

I found this in a Facebook group and thought it was very true and helpful. So true! Things learned.... #repost 1. Your hormones will get out of whack. Men and women. As you lose fat, you release estrogen and that creates major mood swings. It can create havoc on your system. You might get angry or sad for no reason. You may develop anxiety. You might have depression and/or it might worsen. It WILL get better over time. 2. Women - your periods will change. If you didn't get them, they may suddenly start. If you were normal before, they might go nuts and happen every two weeks! Some people stop bleeding for a long time. Others never stop. It's a hormonal thing and yes, it will even out. 3. Eating will suck at first because you will not feel satisfied. Being full and satisfied are not the same thing. You will want more but can't have it. It will be hard to adjust, but you WILL adjust. 4. Taste buds will change. Things you loved before, will taste different and vice/versa. 5. Hair may or may not fall out. Some people get it badly, others just thin out some. You can take Biotin and other things to help, but most of it you cannot prevent. It will also even out. Cutting long hair does help because it aids in volume and the new hair blends better. 6. Relationships may struggle. You will have to take a look at who you are as a person and a couple. You will change and your significant other will have to change as well. Your whole outlook on food and life has to change - and they will either go along with you, or they just won't be able to take it. Communication is VITAL to keeping love alive and it's ongoing. 7. You will lose inches without the pounds. Pay attention to your clothes and not only the scale. 8. You WILL stall. It happens. Be patient. Drink water. 9. Some people with lax skin already, will only get worse. There is no amount of exercise to prevent it. Some young folks and those with different body types might get lucky. I hope it's you. If it isn't, just understand that it isn't your fault! 10. Sex will change for you. It might get better (and I hope it does!) It might hurt too (hormone changes). 11. How you see yourself will change. If you have always been the fat one, you will need to get to know yourself again. It's a process. Accept yourself and these changes. 12. People will treat you differently - and usually better. This part is hard to take when you realize how real fat shaming is. It should give you a sense of who your real friends are. 13. You may find yourself judging other fat people for their choices. Stop it. 14. Find an exercise you love to do and your body will love you for it. Yes, you can lose without exercise, but exercise is vital to maintaining muscle health and toning. 15. Comparing yourself to others is the best way to fail. You will lose at the pace that your body loses and another person's success does NOT degrade your own. Trust the process and your doctor. Same journey, but different boats, folks. Most of all - this is not easy. It will NEVER be easy. Nothing worth it ever is.