So it's been 4 years since I last posted to this blog. SO many changes since then and I don't plan to update anything right now. Honestly at this point I plan to use this as a place to journal my new adventure. The title of this blog is Broken Potterie for a reason. I am but clay in the Master's hand. I have been broken so many times in life and have over come with God's help.
There is but one area of life that I have never over come and that area carries many failures, brokenness, and sadness. That area is my health, to be specific my weight. I have been considered over weight, obese and morbidly obese for 39 years of my 47 yrs on this earth. It started when I was 8 and exploded by the time I was 19. For the last 28 yrs I have stayed in the same weight range give or take 10-20 lbs. I have been on every kind of diet, from diet pills, shakes, Adkins, Weight Watchers, and more. I have lost and gained never reaching my goal weight. Over the last 10 years I have developed arthritis, Fibromyalgia, anxiety/depression (YES Christians struggle with it too), GERD, Type 2 Diabetes, Peripheral Neuropathy and have had both knees replaced. All connected to being morbidly obese.
So I am on a journey toward becoming healthier. This journey will include something I NEVER in my life would have considered even a year ago. But here I am starting the process of apts, tests, specialists and more all to have the gastric sleeve procedure done. It is different than the gastric bypass and I feel is the better of the two procedures. Surgery to lose weight. It's been a long time coming to this decision, one I do not tread lightly upon. This is a major surgery, life changing, life style changing as well. But it's what is necessary to get to a more healthier me.
So I will be journaling my thoughts, fears, frustrations, and victories here. I will keep track of my weight, eating changes and exercising as well. I hope to be able to look back a year from now and see how much I've changed not just physically but emotionally and spiritually as well. I know I can not do anything without my Father in Heaven's help, for I am but clay in His hands