May 4, 2011

You ARE for Me!

I know that you are For me! I know you are! I know that you are for me! I know you are!
What a morning! Seriously! I can't shake this feeling that some how I have missed something important! So many thoughts are going through my mind right now. Too many to be honest.
This morning as I was walking back from getting the mail and was opening an item I felt this major weight about leap off my shoulders and then as I began reading the letter realized that even though this great opportunity has presented itself to us, there is no way it will happen. Which is why I must remind myself that God is FOR ME! He is not against me. He wants this opportunity to take place he does really! So I must trust Him to provide the means for it to take place.
I am realizing that either I am a very negative person or that I deal with the facts so much that having faith for something to take place is just a leap of faith every time. Reality just stinks to be honest sometimes. There are many times I can read the scripture and although it may be positive the reality of a situation becomes so much bigger than what the scripture says in my mind. I need God to be bigger than my circumstances. I KNOW He is but sometimes I need to SEE it take place!
God this is an opportunity to take some pressure off our shoulders financially. It won't really change anything in our daily events but to take just a little more pressure off of Sean and myself would be such a wonderful and healthy thing. God I know you are for me! I know that You are my provider and this opportunity is one I must beg of you to help us with so that we can walk in financial freedom. Lord move the mountains on our behalf!

May 3, 2011

An Yielded Heart


In a tough place right now. It's a personal thing I am walking right now. A place of of just...hmmm...honestly I just don't have the words to even explain it. I feel as if I am adrift on the water and need God to blow me towards the right direction. I am willing to go and do and be all He needs and wants me to. I think honestly I am getting to a place of desperation. Maybe that is where God wants me to be. So desperate for Him, His direction, His provision, His guidance and wisdom. So that when it's time for Him to blow my boat there will be no fight left within me and I will completely yield to His will. Hmmm wow thank you Lord for opening my eyes to see what it is You truly want, an yielded heart! A surrendered heart!
This song about written by Kari Jobe "You Are For Me" really ministers to my spirit right now. Here are the lyrics so you can sing along.

So faithful, so constant, so loving and so true

So powerful in all You do
You fill me, You see me
You know my every move
You love for me to sing to You

Chorus:
A
I know that You are for me
I know that You are for me
I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness
And I know that You have come now
Even if to write upon my heart
To remind me who You are

Verse 2:
So patient, so gracious, so merciful and true
So wonderful in all You do
You fill me, You see me, You know my every move
And you love for me to sing to You, Lord

Chorus:
I know that You are for me
I know that You are for me
I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness
And I know that You have come now
Even if to write upon my heart
To remind me who You are